so yea as of the date im writing this journal.... im juz 2 days away from celebrating my 1 yr anniversarry with the girl i truly care for and love the most..my ivy.....although we juz got back at the beginning of May..May 1st to be exact... i was away from her for 2 months..calling it quits..i never thought i would be celebrating this day because of dat incident...then April 30 when i was driving home like i said in my previous post..i thought about her and stuff..and decided i should stop dis little shit im doing..hiding all the pain and saying stuff i dont mean like ive moved on...but i was wrong with all dat..so here is the completed piece of poem i wrote dat nite..it took me the whole month to do coz i was busy so enjoy this lil pieace i wrote called I Miss You
I Miss You
You were my comfort in the darkness The blanket where I felt secure... You were the soother of my pain You were the sweetest cure...
You knew me like no one else The mirror of my soul... You knew my every dream fantasy and fear All my stories untold...
You loved me more than anyone I know My one and only true love... You would give me anything from the world to the stars above...
But I let you go and I realise today that my heart aches for you... I let you go , my love, but I still love you.... I so miss you...
the piece pretty much tells u my situation.... i loved her but i must let go... but in the end i realized that i still care for and love her so much...so there u have it...i missed her so much... enjoy my peeps....
SKULLS
Sunday, May 01, 2005
x` 12:40 AM -
hayyy dis time.. i went to the fair since my cuzzin was there to do community service for her son..so i helped out a bit..i went home a lil early as usual around 11 pm california time... before i went home i went to dis place where i relax and stuff n think...dis time not N but dis time i thought of my beloved ex ivy... i dunno y.. i thought may feelings pa ako sa knya... dami ko inisip about her.... nanghihinayang ako..kc yesterday was our 11 month anniversarry sana kung kami pa... so i guess tama pa clang lahat i still do have feelings for her....its juz dat there will be no "us" again... so before i went inside the house i blew a kiss in the wind..hoping the wind carries dat kiss onto her cheek juz to show her a lil appreciation for changing my life in so many ways... so ivy i bid u farewell..but u will always be in my heart.... so as my gift..the kiss i blew in the wind... if u feel a wind gasping onto ur cheek...u know who its from.... its my kiss to u my ketchup...dont u worri..ur hot sauce is still here if u need him.. u know how to contact him...i love u vhee....thnx ketchup for changing my life in so many ways...but the sad part is dat there will be no more "us" ever again
